(The Tapestry Project) Day 2: Who is your helper?

When I was younger, I remember praying for a best friend. I wanted a best friend to share life with. But I never really had one, until I met my husband. I don't know if this is just a phase, but I lack friends in my life. I long for them, but I don't think I'm ready for them. I don't know how to keep a friend. I don't know how to be a good friend. Perhaps if I only knew then what I know now, I would have a few friends to count on.

The only friend I have at the moment is my husband. Our relationship started while we were still apart. We struggled through a long distance relationship for a year or so. And another year later, we decided to get married. It wasn't hard to love him. He was the most incredible man I've ever met. I was treated like a real woman - and that hasn't happened before. It's been two years since we got married and I'm still so in love with him. I still find him attractive in every single way. Marriage is a scary word. But when I think of him, marriage doesn't seem scary at all.

There have been moments when I wouldn't be at my best, but he knows me well enough to know exactly what to do - either to leave me alone or be there to comfort me. On my worst days, his love reminds me of God's love for me. And it's just what I need.

My life before him was like the dark ages of my life. I was in terrible relationships. I had no direction. I made bad decisions. I didn't even have a dream for myself. But after I met him, it was like I forgot what heartache was ever like. I can say it with all confidence that I forgot my heart was ever broken from all those relationships that has torn me apart. I am so secure in this relationship. I really believe that God has made us for each other.

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  1. Hi Hazel! I replied to your comment on my blog, but wasn't sure if the notification would appear. At any rate - yes, blogging counts as writing! I thought of tagging you but recalled your hesitations about writing, as you mentioned in a previous post. Glad to hear you're up for it, though! Do it do it :p

    I'm sorry this is completely unrelated to your current post - let me give it a read and return :) This Tapestry Project sounds interesting!

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  2. Read this and while I don't want to flood your comments box, I have to say that it is beautiful. :) I can see that Timmy adores you, as well!

    By the way, have you heard of the blog Teach With Joy? Thought I'd share it with you - the author is a wonderful woman who writes about God and family life, and for someone super single like me, it might be unusual to gush over a blog like that with a friend, lol. You might appreciate it, though :)

    Keep writing, Hazel!

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    1. Aww, thank you so much! I don't know if people read my stuff but I'm so glad to get feedback (although it scares me a bit). Haha!

      And yeah, the notification didn't appear. But that's strange! I thought I asked it to notify me. Anyways, I'm going to try doing the tag today. I cannot wait to put Zaki to his nap so I can start writing. It's the only time I get to do so!

      Oh, I'll check out that blog you mention. I follow a lot of mom bloggers. I'm sure I'll love it. :)

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  3. Awww. If that isn't an endorsement for marriage I don't know what is. It is beautiful what you guys have!

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