When I was younger, I remember praying for a best friend. I wanted a best friend to share life with. But I never really had one, until I met my husband. I don't know if this is just a phase, but I lack friends in my life. I long for them, but I don't think I'm ready for them. I don't know how to keep a friend. I don't know how to be a good friend. Perhaps if I only knew then what I know now, I would have a few friends to count on.
The only friend I have at the moment is my husband. Our relationship started while we were still apart. We struggled through a long distance relationship for a year or so. And another year later, we decided to get married. It wasn't hard to love him. He was the most incredible man I've ever met. I was treated like a real woman - and that hasn't happened before. It's been two years since we got married and I'm still so in love with him. I still find him attractive in every single way. Marriage is a scary word. But when I think of him, marriage doesn't seem scary at all.
There have been moments when I wouldn't be at my best, but he knows me well enough to know exactly what to do - either to leave me alone or be there to comfort me. On my worst days, his love reminds me of God's love for me. And it's just what I need.
My life before him was like the dark ages of my life. I was in terrible relationships. I had no direction. I made bad decisions. I didn't even have a dream for myself. But after I met him, it was like I forgot what heartache was ever like. I can say it with all confidence that I forgot my heart was ever broken from all those relationships that has torn me apart. I am so secure in this relationship. I really believe that God has made us for each other.